A Sabbatical

I love my blog it might not be as inspiring as some I love to visit but I enjoy writing it and taking time to look for things for it – so you all know its serious when I say I wont be blogging over the next 2 weeks at least.

Confusion over dates for assignments means I have more to hand in before the end of may than I thought – some still can be handed in for the August deadline but so much to do – problems with hours or lack of them basically has meant it has been impossible to do any preparation so now its all systems go.

I put a new poem on   Poohs poetry corner  and thats me till at least these are handed in before the end of may.

Much love and prayers to all my bloggy friends xxx


What If?


Psalm 9:10 (NIV)

10 Those who know your name will trust in you,
for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.


Who here worries about things? Who’s a worry wart?

What about?

Well you know Im guilty as well I worry loads recently it was about college.
If I don’t get enough placement hours what going to happen?

What if I cant sit my exams and do my assignments­ I have to do so many before I can
What if I cant help my clients ?
What if I let them down.?

For some of you it may be lots of things maybe

What if you don’t get the job- don’t have enough to pay bills etc

Well you know its not a problem to ask questions about your life and the world around you – If you look in the bible its full of people asking sometimes very hard questions.

But it can become a problem when the What if question is asked out of fear or doubt instead of trust.

Fear is nasty Nick whispering in you hear trying to gain a foot hold in your life.
The real issue is what’s behind the question?

What does it mean to trust?

The dictionary says it is : to place somebody or something in the care of another person or the belief that you can trust someone or something

How hard is that?

That’s a really stuff challenge for all of us , especially if you have trusted someone In the past and then have let you down

But its different with God

God doesn’t lie
God doesn’t change his mind
God doesn’t let us down

Numbers 23:19 (NIV)

19 God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?


When we decide to trust God with our future and the decisions we are saying to him

God I’m placing my life into your care I’m choosing to trust that whatever I face a challenge or decision I will follow your lead. I know you are watching over me

Trusting God takes the weight of worry and fear off our shoulders so next time you start to think what if – stop and choose to trust God


Genesis 22:1-12 (NIV)

Genesis 22

Abraham Tested

1 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, “Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.

2 Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.”

3 Early the next morning Abraham got up and saddled his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. 4 On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. 5 He said to his servants, “Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you.”

6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”
“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.
“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”

8 Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” And the two of them went on together.

9 When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 11 But the angel of the LORD called out to him from heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.

12 “Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”

Hiding from depression

I guess one of the problem’s with counselling if a client presents a problem which is real to you , something that has happened to you in the past and maybe you haven’t dealt with it completely and you start looking at their issue from your perspective.

Anyway its no secret that I have suffered from depression in the past and even when I have been well it has hung over me like a black shadow waiting to descend. I have shared how my friends prayed for me recently with regards to my back and that has been great – thank you Jesus . But I have also been ‘well’ its as if the black shadow has gone completely – I’m not waiting for it to descend .

Anyway back to the counselling something was said to me recently which brought back a memory of my own depression of when I was truly lost to it . How I wanted to call out for someone to see my misery and yet being afraid that people would actually see in me my despair -wanting help but been afraid that people would then see me as a depressed person- does that make sense I hope it does – anyway I dealt with these feelings evoked and wrote an entry on Poohs poetry corner called I am here

The ebb and flow

The ebb and flow of life

Each day brings forth joy and sorrow


Constant like each wave

That tosses me back and forth


Constant is my Fathers love

That never lets me go


Constant is his forgiveness

Never ending


Constant is his strength

As he carries my burden


Lifting me in his joy

Surrounding me in his love


In a crowded space
Im feeling alone
Is anybody listening?
Is anybody there ?

I don’t like this place
I feel Helpless, tied
unable to move
All I can do
is stop and stare

Is any one aware?
The pain within
I feel like a child
small and alone

And then I am lifted high
held close and tight
safe and secure
By My Lord, My God


For lots of people memories of childhood bring back sunny days, picnics , playing in the park. Feeling safe , loved , cuddles and laughter. But for some its a dark , frightening place that we would rather not revisited- I hate going back

Praise be to the God and Father
of our Lord Jesus Christ,
the Father of compassion
and the God of all comfort,
who comforts us in all our troubles,
so that we can comfort those
in any trouble
with the comfort we ourselves
have received from God.
2 Corinthians 1:3, 4


Your words are like Autumn touched by the sun
With fire and spirit, lots of love held within.

Winter waiting for your direction
anticipation, hope and longing

Promises of springtime, afresh and new
After the winter which are all due

Like a childhood of endless summer
Your strength and wisdom continues
For ever.

I Need A Hug

I need a Hug
Climb up upon my lap
Scrambling upon your knee, I snuggle in close
eyes shut tight
Tell me your trouble, whats wrong my child
Pulling me close I feel comfort and right
I take a breathe my heart is heavy
Nothings going right, I dont know what to do .
You listen and nod as I whinge and I cry
Trust me its fine
everything will be alright
Its just takes time leave it with me
And don`t worry
Thanks for listening
Thanks for being here
You smile as I go
I turn as you say
Anytime, Im always here
Ive been here even
befor time began