Proud Mummy .

A proud mummy moment today . Bear came out of school today beaming – he had received the high achiever award   for working hard at his writing .

Of course we had to take a picture – he`s such a little poser for the camera and loves taking them as well.

I have mixed feelings about these sorts of awards- Im aware that their are several children in his class – including him  until today that have been a bit anxious about not getting the award . Not an exam but still pressure for such young children – what if at the end of the year a child hasnt got it – Im sure they deserve it for something because they have all achieved so much in their first year of primary school – every one a little achiever , proud Mums all round.


Today I got stuck at a junction – seemed ages in the heat and I put my best smile on and waited , hoping someone would take pity on me and let me out .

Its always bad at school time , the village groans amd complains at the extra traffic – it only takes one thoughtless person to park where they shouldnt and it comes to a complete standstill .

Finally after what seemed like an age someone took pity on my plight and I was able to continue my journey – a mile taking me 15 minutes .

I thought about that person who for a brief moment put someone else first and how often we dont take the time to , too caught up in our busy lives. For me helping others is a almost a secret part of being a Christian cause those we help  9 times out of 10 wont know  and we wont get the chance to talk about God to them – at least we can say a little prayer .

Sometimes I disagree with God – OK so very often I disagree with him – I know he’s right but that doesn’t stop me behaving like a sullen child trailing my feet because I don’t want to be going or doing what I having to do or its not happening right now .

My recent sullenness is to do with my Church – I am where I believe God wants me to be but oh why does it have to be a Church of Ireland ( Lord couldn’t it be a more evangelistic church – maybe a Baptist says she hopefully) . Maybe its me I’m very anti establishment – I don’t like man made rules and traditions which when you try and peel the layers of to find out why you do things the way you do well it just seems to be the biggest onion in the world . And yet other Churches have their rules etc., maybe they just seem to easier to understand. I believe that when out Dear Lord was crucified , died and buried that it was the end of all that . It was saying yes there had been a time and place for all the old laws but now he has risen – the slate was wiped clean – so what do we do make up all these new rules to follow- crazy .

The reason for this dissatisfaction is simple – summer is coming and from the end of may till September we only have the traditional services – where everything is very set in stone . If I look back to last summer I will be able to see that on the same Sundays we will sing the same hymns ( more or less) say the same prayers for definite . Here she goes again and yes probably if you look back I will be in this same frame of mind last year and the year before. And I know that if I left it wouldn’t solve the problem – yes for me it would but that would be such a selfish act to walk away . We have moved forward albeit slowly and I am part of that change and where God wants me to be – last summer I rarely was in Church – too depressing but after chatting with a dear friend today I feel that just to hide over the summer without a word is not the right thing to so I am going to tell my Minister how I feel – I know I’m not alone , not even in the minority any more – The ten o’clock service is now the bigger service when its on – its come so far and recently so many and commented on the very real presence of God.. The sermons have been so uplifting and inspiring – Praise God for all he has done and for all he continues to do

Well Dh is away 1 week today so a third of the way through .Thinking a lot about him today – its so cold and blustery here today – Im cold. I`ve no doubt he will be freezing. At least after I got Ds2 from school I was able to come into the warmth and make my self a hot drink. Take so much for granted , my home , food, warmth and family even my faith .

So many people have little or nothing, Some dont even have the right to go to church or worship God . They are abused and killed for their faith.

November 11th is remembrance Sunday but its also world wide prayer day for the persecuted church .

Im marking it by basing my talk at youth fellowship about the plight of those around the world who suffer for their faith , I hope the young people get something from it.

International prayer day

Almighty and everlasting God, hear the cries of your people as we call to you for your suffering church throughout the world. As you heard the cries of your ancient people in bondage in Egypt and came down to deliver them, so now hearken to the suffering of the persecuted church in our time. Give bread to those who are hungry, comfort to the imprisoned, strength to the tortured and all for the sake of Jesus who lived and died for us, who now lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. Amen

He will calm your fears…..

well my dh sent me a e-mail today – the last one I will get for a while. He flew into Lukla and trekked to Namche which is the last town before Everest so no more e-mail. Hes having a rest day to help acclimatise . Tomorrow he starts the long trek . Please pray for him and his 2 friends as he is suffering from headaches and sickness – hopefully it will past it would be tradgic if he had to come down because of altitude sickness. And Im feeling a bit wobbly about it all


Psalm 32:7-9

7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.

John 14:1-3

1“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. 2In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. 3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.

Psalm 34:17-19

17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;

he delivers them from all their troubles.

18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

19 A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;

Being a Christian doesnt mean everything is rosy – that bad things dont happen but it does mean you are never alone never abandoned and you have the strength through him to pick yourself up, dust yourself down and get on with it.

Being a Christian doent mean you necessarily get to live in a big house and drive a big flashy car- wealth doesnt equal faith or lack off. But it does mean that I trust God to provide for my needs- learning that how he sees my needs doesnt always tally with my wants

well thats the hard bit .

Still here

Been a stressful couple of weeks so I took sometime off from blogging- thats not exactly true in that when things are tough the last thing I can do is talk or write about them- Im the same in real life.

college going badly , we are tutorless for our placement module , the tutor we had and I use the word tutor lightly as he wasnt a counsellor but a social worker- didnt appear to have a clue and apparently wasnt there to teach but to supervise us- the 2 week we did see him he seemed to spend it getting us to talk about ourselves and then interrupting us and talking about himself- I`ll make a deal- When I finish – (should that be if )- I promise I wont try and teach social work – just need social workers to promise not to teach counselling – Anyway we more than half way through the module – 2 classes – no teaching , assignments due in – no idea about what. hours bad and its out of my hands

I have to do this court appearance via video link which is going to be truly awful – against a family member which has brought horrible memories back and feels like a betrayal and yet I have no choice if I dont Im letting others down and when they are children – well as I say no choice

Just found out my Dh is being made redundant in the New year -not so worried about WHAT new job its the WHERE that makes me anxious . Sure does put a strain on relationships.

Anyway my hubby is away for 3 weeks to climb to Everest – not the top Im glad to say just the highest camp. Hes in Kathmandu for a couple of days with a couple of guys from work before he begins the climb- seems a very poor place, filthy with lots of people begging – his first visit to a third world country and Im sure its hard to see people living in such poverty- please keep them in your prayers as they continue on their journey,

Been feeling very isolated and alone these past weeks – I know God is with me but I seem to have built a wall around me, Keeping him and others at arms length. Spending less time on the net, more time reading my Bible and other material , more prayer and its helping . Was re- reading Ann lamonts Travelling Mercies and read of two prayers she finds helpful- Help Me, Help Me ,Help Me and Thankyou , Thankyou , Thankyou – sounds good to me .