I dont wear make up at church

So after a worse year than the one before my last pitiful attempt at returning to blogging Im back at church , a different person , one who doesnt wear mascara cause its easier to cry with out it and when your dear friend uses her sleeve to wipe away your tears your arent messing up her jacket .

I have lost that child like faith where you believe God will look after you and protect you , yet my faith in him is stronger than ever.
Is if a mistake to tell our children that he will protect you against harm when clearly he doesnt , rather he is with you and cuddles you up in a warm blanket even when you are unaware . Surrounds you with people to pray for you when the words and thoughts choke you .
Maybe then not so many would fall by the way side when the shit hits the fan. Recently I felt anger and tearful when the childrens address told them what I see as false promises for now . People do get sick , accidents do happen and there are evil people in the world who do harm but more importantly God is always there even when I am not .


Back to church

Today is a big day – Church . I have been once since June and its time to get back- I actually was ready to go last week but my son took sick as the very last minute. Theres a lunch after so im feeling a bit stressed by the thought of it

It was spring now its Autumn

Its a bit of a shock to the system when you start to come out of the fog to find that while the world in a sense stopped – it actually didnt – People carried on , a bit like when you bump into a friend you havent seen for a long time – their baby is now running around, practically ready for school , your aware that time has passed but now how long .
it was spring now its autumn kind of thing and i dont know how it happened . I sort of know it was march and now its september – very little in between connects – you can only blame meds so much . I have lost a couple of real life friends in this time , and a heap of on line ones . Some have battled on regardless on the reaction they got or failed to get . Gosh must have been tough for them . We all need affirmation in what we do , whether its work or relationships . I know she is my friend because …………
we have fun
we do things
shes there for me
we talk
we listen
we cry we laugh
kinda stuff.
well im sure they didnt get much feed back from me for a lone while but im so blessed by them hanging in there. I dont think one will know how much it meant her just to texts telling me what was going on in her life – some not great but it till made me feel valued – Thanks Hun

Painted smile

We walk down the street , we bump into people we havent seen for an age and we ask they how they are . Fine they reply , we dont wait for the answer and this is on a good day . On a bad day we mighten even ask . Unaware that the persons painted smile stuck on is covering more pain and heartbreak that we can imagine.Oh maybe we do but dont want to open the can of worms that might follow. I guess im that person at the moment , theres a lot of us out there .
This blog has been my painted smile – a smile i havent managed to hold on for the last 6 months , i dont think i even will again – but with Gods grace maybe i can start being honest

At the moment , for the last 2 years life has Sucked – time to get better

Open Doors – Egypt

Six Christian brothers sent to prison after police brutality

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 [NIV]

Six Christian brothers have been sentenced to three years in prison with hard labor for resisting arrest and assaulting authorities after they opened their café during Ramadan, the Muslim month of fasting.

In September last year, police officers raided the café in Port Sa’id, a city in Egypt’s Nile delta, overturning tables, breaking chairs and smashing glasses and hookah pipes. Ashraf, Magdy, Osama, Nabil, Walid and Hany, all from the Morris Ghatas family, were beaten with sticks, leaving two with broken arms and a third needing stitches for a head wound.

There is no law in Egypt under which the brothers could be prosecuted for opening their café during Ramadan. When they tried to defend their café, the brothers, all in their 30s, were arrested and charged with resisting arrest and assaulting authorities. They were held for 30 days before being released on bail, set at 12,000 Egyptian pounds (US$2,173). This week they were convicted of resisting arrest and assaulting authorities and sentenced accordingly.

At the trial last week, defense counsel showed a video of the incident shot by an onlooker as evidence of police brutality. However, the footage did not sway Judge Mohammed Hassan El-Mahmody.

The brothers intend to appeal.

Source: Compass Direct
Please pray:

1. Remember the six Morris Ghatas brothers in jail. Pray that they would not be victimised in prison but would receive God’s strength and be a source of encouragement to those around them.
2. Pray for the authorities in Egypt, that they would treat all citizens, including the sizeable Christian population, justly and legally.
3. Pray for Christians living in Muslim societies that they would be given wisdom as they seek to be culturally sensitive to those around them.

For further news from the Persecuted Church visit http://www.opendoorsuk.org/news

Thank you for praying with us.
Communications Team

Open Doors – Christmas apeal

I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me. Matthew 25:40 [NIV]

Send a Special Gift this Christmas

Dear Friend,

Mary* is a beautiful eight year old girl who lives in a desolate Muslim village in Egypt. Her story is both heartbreaking and filled with hope…

“My name is Mary and I am 8 years old. My mum & dad used to beat me and my friends didn’t love me. I wished to find someone who truly loved me. One day I heard about the children’s Club in our village and I learned that Jesus loves me and that He wants to change my life. Thank you, Lord Jesus that you died for me. Thank you that you redeemed me. Lord Jesus, I love you.”

Mary is just one of over 200,000 children in Egypt, northern Sudan and Iraq who have heard the Gospel of Jesus during summer Children’s Clubs. Mary’s heart has been turned from hate to love by the power of the Gospel! Mary’s story – made possible through Open Doors’ sponsored Children’s Clubs – provides hope, not just for Mary, but for thousands of children like her.

This Christmas, please will you remember Mary? The children love these camps: they introduce them to Jesus and give them real hope for the future. Open Doors is putting in place a £250,000 programme. Not only will it provide the means to run Children’s Clubs throughout the region, but the programme will also provide Bible stories and materials for each child to take home.

Send a Special Gift this Christmas
A gift of £20
can provide 10 children like Mary with Bible stories, crayons and a t-shirt at Children’s Club!
Help reach Young People with the Good News of Jesus Christ
A gift of £60
can train and resource
a youth leader with a Study Bible!

Additionally this fund will support an ambitious programme to train and equip a new generation of youth leaders capable of mentoring teenagers, and providing hope not only to the children of today, but establishing a foundation for the Church of tomorrow.

Our work wouldn’t be possible without your support. This Christmas please remember Mary. If you have not given a donation please make the time to do it now!

Finally, please can I ask you to take the time to forward this Christmas appeal to members of your church, friends and family and to visit the Open Doors website for more information on how you can support the Persecuted Church.

Click here to watch Eddie’s Christmas Appeal video »

Have a very blessed Christmas

Advent : The Avent wreath

The Advent Wreath- In my church all white but i came across this and it made me think a bit more deepy so thought I would share it


And again, Isaiah says, “The Root of Jesse will spring up, one who will arise to rule over the nations; the Gentiles will hope in him.” May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit (Rom. 15:12-13). Traditionally, during the Christmas season we have an “Advent Wreath” in our Churches, and this is remarkably celebrated in all Denominations, including Orthodox, Catholic, liturgical, Mainline and Evangelical. The Advent Wreath is a venerable tradition that cuts across denominational and theological boundaries. It dates to the beginning of the 19th century in Europe. This Advent Wreath is arranged with 4 or 5 Advent candles, 3 or 4 of which are in a circle, along with one in the center, all on a base of evergreens each has a powerful message for us about our Lord. This has prevailing imagery we should not take for granted or consider just another holiday decoration. · The Wreath: The wreath itself means “victory” as Christ’s victory over sin so He can save us. The Advent Wreath has 4 or 5 candles that are arranged in a circle symbolizing Christ’s eternity, as a circle has no beginning and has no end, it is a symbol for God, Who is eternal and thus without beginning or end. The evergreens mean He is “ever with us,” they are usually pine branches or holly that are used as a base that represents anticipation, newness, renewal and His everlastingness. The red berries of the holly represent the shedding of Christ’s blood. · The Candles: The Advent candles mean the light of God coming into the world through the birth of His Son. This refers to the significance that Christ is the Light of the world. When they are lit, the illumination is to symbolize the Christ of eternity and His coming as the “Light of the World” and our worship and honor of His most precious gift of His Grace and mercy. These candles also have a color theme too, purple, blue, pink or rose and while. The first two or three are purple meaning royalty and this is also the color of suffering and the darkness of sin, connecting Jesus’ birth and crucifixion and His triumph over sin. Blue means sky and life, pink means joy, and white means purity. Each candle has a special meaning: o The first candle (purple) “CANDLE OF HOPE” means His promise and hope. We can have hope because God is faithful and will keep the promises He made to us. Our hope comes from God. (Romans 15:12-13) o The second candle (purple) “CANDLE OF PREPARATION” means His light and preparation. Preparation means to ‘get ready’. “Help us to be ready to welcome YOU, O GOD!” (Luke 3:4-6) (Some traditions combine the first two) o The third candle (pink or rose) “CANDLE OF JOY” means the angels sang a message of JOY! (Luke 2:7-15) o The fourth candle (purple or blue) “CANDLE OF LOVE” symbolizes Christ love. God sent His only Son to earth to save us, because He loves us! (John 3:16-17) (some traditions omit this one) o The fifth candle (white) “CHRIST CANDLE” symbolizes the incarnation, the heart and reason of the season, God giving light to the world. Its location is in the center as Christ’s light is central and radiant. This reminds us that Jesus is the spotless Lamb of God, sent to wash away our sins! (in wreaths that have 4 candles, it is in the circle among the rest of the candles) · Each candle is lighted during the worship services each week in progression until Christmas Eve or Christmas Day when the last candle is lit. (some denominations and traditions have different color schemes and some only four candles) Each week the new unlit candle for that week is lighted, and then the previous candles are re-lighted. A family is sent up to do the lighting as a passage is read, a carol sang and or a prayer said. The four weeks are a period of waiting also signifying the four centuries of waiting between the last prophet Malachi and the birth of Jesus. All five candles should continue to be lighted in worship services through Epiphany on January 6 (epiphany means “to show,” is the climax of the Christmas Season and the “Twelve Days of Christmas.” It is observed to denote the coming of the wise men bringing gifts and their worship to Christ).